We often ask God to show up. We pray prayers of rescue. Perhaps God would ask us to be that rescue, to be His body, to move for things that matter. He is not invisible when we come alive. I might be simple but more and more, I believe God works in love, speaks in love, is revealed in our love. I have seen that this week and honestly, it has been simple: Take a broken girl, treat her like a famous princess, give her the best seats in the house. Buy her coffee and cigarettes for the coming down, books and bathroom things for the days ahead. Tell her something true when all she's known are lies. Tell her God loves her. Tell her about forgiveness, the possibility of freedom, tell her she was made to dance in white dresses. All these things are true.

We are only asked to love, to offer hope to the many hopeless. We don't get to choose all the endings, but we are asked to play the rescuers. We won't solve all mysteries and our hearts will certainly break in such a vulnerable life, but it is the best way. We were made to be lovers bold in broken places, pouring ourselves out again and again until we're called home.

I'm sure I'm not the only person who has read this quote a billion times over. TWLOHA started my hoodie obsession a few years back. (haha, that sounds so materialistic) Anyway, TYLOHA also kicked off my love for Johnny Cash's song lyrics (I can't say I have much love for his vocals) and for online shopping. ((: And now that I'm reminded of it, I'm mcstalking their online shop right now. I'll check how much the postage is.

I'm so bored in school, I'm flooding my flist. >.<

I'm putting this reminder on top of all of my posts. I have moved to http://acousticallie.livejournal.com. Please add me back.

Is Aiden a unisex name? Is it?? I know it's a guy's name, but my female lead wants to be named Aiden. Can she? This is the BILLIONTH plot rewrite I've done for this particular story, and I cannot BELIEVE how different the plot has been from the first one. It moved from high school to college, I've changed female leads at least six times, and the male lead as well. The only thing that ever stayed constant throughout this entire crappy period of drafts is Lewis Clemington, and I'm very, very lucky to have him. BUT THIS STORY HAS GONE THROUGH TOO MANY PLOT CHANGES, IT IS NOT NORMAL. PLEASE let this be the perfect last one!

I'm cursing rapidly in my head now, you have no idea. I don't understand why they give online assignments. I don't understand HOW we're supposed to present our answers! "List elements in the order: C first, followed by H, then other elements in increasing atomic number, with subscripts immediately following the element symbol." I DID THAT. And I still got it wrong. My answer is correct. I KNOW my answer is correct. ACCEPT IT OR DIE, ASSHOLE. I'm yelling at a computer program. Ugh. Twenty one questions left before I officially lose my mind. I told myself that I wouldn't go to Ekka tomorrow if I couldn't finish this by today. *shrugs* I wasn't keen on going tomorrow with the others anyway... I guess I like being alone, when the other option is making strained conversation with a bunch of people. I just don't feel at ease with them, no matter how hard I try. I'll go on the public holiday, if I go at all. It's so exPENSIVE! Sixteen dollars JUST for admission.

Star Wars (the animated film) is coming out next week. I'm watching it, and crossing out one of my mission101 goals in the process ("watch a movie alone"). I'm a Star Wars geek. I've seen it all before, makes you wonder even more... (yes, it's song lyrics... i digress) I have a feeling that I won't like it, because I hate anything animated. I don't watch anime... I don't even read anime, fanfic, comics or not. In fact, the only comics I read are Calvin and Hobbes (and I read all of Calvin. I love it.). Also, because Hayden Christensen is not reprising his role as Anakin! WHY?!

Things to do
- Physics research report draft (due friday)
- Biology tutorial (due tuesday, but finish tonight!)
- Chemistry online assignment (due Sunday)
- Maths exel graph plotting (due whenever)
- CHEMISTRY UNIT TEST (tuesday)

I'm gonna be the hermit this weekend. And the weekends to come, actually. Unit tests are coming one after the other. Chemistry first, bio second, math third. I hate school.

Suh-lee-nuh gave me this quote, which I will post, because I love.

Life changes. You get it all lined up just the way you like it and then something beyond your control comes along and bumps you off center. How nice it would be if you could get everything just the way you want it and say, 'Okay, now, stay.' But nothing stays the same. You grow up, make friends, lose friends, go to college, lose track of people, meet new ones, and sometimes you ask yourself why. 
But all I can tell you is the every single experience you go through like this changed you in some way. Every new person who comes into your life changes you. Every moral dilemma or emotional experience you come up against changes you. It`s your job, you decide how.
That`s how character is developed. 

People always leave us... C'est la vie? or God?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BABYSIS! 
we don't talk as much now, since I've moved to Australia... which is complete RUBBISH because I'm no further away from you when I was in SG than where I am now! You live in freaking CANADA, for heaven's sake. Can't get any further away than that.

May all your dreams (including the one with Josh Hutcherson, sweetie, you can't fool me. I KNOW those dreams) come true! Nicholas may be my 'one true love', but I mean it when I say... you come in a verrrry close second. *winkwink*
Couldn't find a stripper cake for you, or a cake in the shape of a... well, the mail genitals (I still love your writing, and I went back and reread them not too long ago). So here's the next best thing. At least it isn't pink. :P

I'm gonna tell you the same thing my friends told me when I turned sixteen- you're legal to screw (but that doesn't mean you do).

ex-oh-ex-oh,
me.




this may throw your flist page outtawhack, but I don't care, because my babysis is LEGAL (to screw- don't do it, though!).